Meltdown

So, it's true! I had my first official breakdown as a mother of twins the other night.  It was the usual evening where at 10 my girls thought it was day time and were wide awake and very fussy with tummy aches!  Just when I'd get one settled down, and get into bed, the other would start crying hysterically.  And if it wasn't one it was both! So by 2 am I had just about had it.  I was holding a crying baby in the recliner, then of course in the other room the other girl starts screaming.  So i did what any smart mom would do, I started crying with them.  Yup, 3 of us crying, it was a beautiful night.  So my cute husband (whom I was trying to let sleep cuz he wasn't feeling well) came and got both the girls, shut my bedroom door and kept them out of the room for a few hours.  I think that was the best 3 hours of sleep EVER.

But the good news is I still totally love my girls! :)

little ladies

My sis, Jane, came up and since we can't really take the girls out yet, we had our own little photo shoot at our house.  The girls only handled it for so long, but I still think we got some great pics.

Dani

Jaci

These girls are so much fun to have around.  And being identical they really do things on tune with eachother, such as crying, diapers, feeding, noises (one nurse said she thinks they talk a lot, and those that know me know that they come by that honestly from their mom)

People have asked about their names, so here's the story.  I was named after my 2 great grandmas and always like that.  I didn't want my girls to have middle names, so I wanted to name them after somebody.  I have always really LOVED the name Dani for a girl and it just so happens that Dane's step dad is named Danny and we adore him, so that's who her name came after.  

Dane thought he got to pick the next name and Dane's middle name is Jay after his grandpa Jay, so he came up with Jaci which I really liked. and that is where my little girls get their names from (2 males) ha ha

But you have to all admit they are adorable!

our little bugs....

yes these are newborn outfits and 

still so big!

home at last...

Our little girls are finally HOME!  They came home a week ago, and of course it's been quite hectic around the Tidwell home..  Dani is still on a little bit of oxygen and at night they both are on monitors (yes the beeping is wonderful).  They have grown so much, on Thu Dani was 5.7 lbs and Jaci was 5.9 lbs.  They are gaining so quickly I bet they're about 6 Lbs by now.  I know that doesn't sound big to you guys, but less than 6 weeks ago they were 3 lbs!

We absolutely love having them home!  We have had SO much help from family and friends, and now that everybody is gone, I miss all the company!  

I have 7 more weeks off of school, so I get to spend some time with the beautiful ladies!

Oh and since a lot of you are moms out there does anyone have remedies on helping tommy aches.  These girls will just SCREAM! I've tried mylocon and a couple random things, but now I'm desperate!

jazz night out

Dane and I were so lucky and got to go to the jazz

game against the spurs the other night.  It was so

nice to GET OUT of the house and did I mention

we were on the 4th row!!!

And of course our little dani and jaci are doing so well.

It's getting harder and harder to leave them every day,

but it looks like we still have at least 3 more weeks

of this :(. . . . As long as they come home healthy we

will be happy!!!

Little Miracles

   Dani  3lbs 11oz.... Jan 16th 8:44 pm

&

   Jaci    3 lbs 3oz..... Jan 16th 8:41 pm

They have arrived!!!! I wish you could all just see how precious and sweet these two little girls are.  As you can see from the picture we're gonna have a hard time tel

ling them apart.  They have tons of black hair, and are tintsy and so easy to love!

Now we'll tell a shortened version of why these ladies are here so early!.  I went in last friday for my routine ultrasound (my 3rd appt of the day) and as they were looking our little Jaci had no more fluid in her sack and Dani had tons!  So they said, well its time to deliver.  You need to have these babies in the next hour or two!  Ya, dane and I were both shaking pretty bad.  

What happens with no more fluid is they can't grow anymore, causes kidney failure, heart problems etc.

So I went down to labor and delivery.  I had been told about a week prior that I would have to have a c section because of all the complications with the girls (so yes, I was nervous without having a ton of knowledge of the procedure!)  But anyways, I had eaten only an hour before, so they strapped me with all the monitors and we waited until 8:30 that night to start everything.  I was so thankful to have Dane near me and want to be in the room, not to mention he was watching in amazement!  But Jaci came out first and I just remember Dane sayi

ng "I see her little fingers, its like she's reaching out for us"  So she came out great and Dane left me ALONE to go see her, then they got Dani out an

d the whole process was only like 30 min.  Quite amazing! I shortly got to see the girls, but they had to be rushed to ICU and they didn't let me see them until the next morning which I think is just cruel...  They were born at 32 weeks and 3 days, and are doing amazingly well.  They both breath on their own, and are taking their food.  We get to see them twice a day, and hold them for 30 min.  It's definately not my favorite, but I am thankful that they are improving every day and are such troopers!

We are now a happy family of 4!!!!!!!!!!

BEDREST!?! What?? Why??

If any of you have thoughts similar to mine, you think of bedrest and know it happens to woman who are pregnant, but never think it will be YOU. . So we went in for a non stress test last week and didn't think much of it because it's usually the ultrasounds that scare us and we are prepared for bad news with.  

During my test, I was apparently having contractions every 1 and1/2 to 2 min. So they send us down to labor and delivery.  Now I knew I was having contractions, but I truly thought it was normal, (i mean i've never been pregnant before)  So making a long story short, weekend at the hospital, and a lot of drugs later I am finally home.  The doctors were worried because I dialated over night and with first pregnancy's  and 2 babies that worries them.  So now they think I have days before the babies come!!! Because even with all the med's I am still contracting, but they just sent me home on strict bed rest.

That was hard for me because I was supposed to go back to school on Monday, and I really do feel better when I am busy,but I guess the maternity leave came earlier than planned.

So now we just kind of sit and wait.  We had an ultrasound yesterday and one baby is 3.5 lbs and the other is 4 lbs.  So they're getting big!  We're just hoping I make it past 32 weeks!

Thank you to everyone for all the prayers, and my next apt is tommorow so we'll keep you all posted on how things go.